Change

Change is inevitable. And often it's a very necessary thing. There's been a lot of change in my life and most of the time, I've really enjoyed it. Moving has been a consistent change in my life. Do you know that I've never chosen to go back and visit people from a previous state? I don't usually keep in contact with anyone from previous states so there's been no need to go back & visit. Now I have kept in contact with college roommates but going to visit them was not going back to college, it was visiting them in their new homes.

Leaving IL for PA was a big change and I have been determined to keep up with friends from IL. Now I haven't done the greatest job at it. There are some friends I haven't spoken with at all since I moved which is rather sad. Well now I'm planning a trip out there. In fact, I leave in 5 days. I'll be in IL for two weekends with the week in between spent in MN visiting family. And I'm nervous. What?!?! Yep, that's right. I'm nervous. It's weird to think about going back. I know a lot has changed back there. I can't expect to go back and find everything the same as I left it. Babies have been born, others have moved away - life has continued for them. In some ways it makes me sad as I long for the days I left behind. But in other ways, I'm excited to see what's new in people's lives, to meet babies and to catch up with old friends.

So why am I nervous? Maybe there's a part of me that wonders if anyone will have time for me. Or I figure I might have to sleep in my car because there is no one to take me in. What a bunch of nonsense!!!! I know I have dear friends waiting to see me in IL who would love to have me stay with them. And I already know that there are people who want to hang out with me. No, it won't be like old times. But these new times that we have will be precious memories with friends and I look forward to the times we'll share.